as always, click through the above for a #vickyquotes recap 💚 (bonus ones below!! hehe)
📷: pictures 8 & 9 were taken by Luce; the same friend mentioned below, the same day :)
((All the other pictures were taken by moiii 🙆🏻♀️🌿 foolishly posing all by myself in the same park that day, while people around me walked by 😂))
This past Sunday, I was asked by a friend what I am most grateful for.
We were 2 meters apart, sitting at a park, going through the "36 questions to fall in love" as an insightful activity to learn more about each other - and that was question #9.
(over the two hours we were there, we had only gotten through the first 10 questions XD)
"For what in your life do you feel most grateful?" she asked.
I took some solid dozens of seconds to think, because - well, there's a lot to be thankful of. 😌
My answer probably took a few minutes to fully explain, and I don't even know if I made sense, but I think that, in one word...I'm most thankful for my spirit.
I am so grateful that I can feel comfortable expressing my genuine self - my love and care - without feeling ashamed, judged, or overly self-conscious. I recognize that, in the current world and society we live in, being someone like me (or just anyone, really!) can lead to me being taken advantage of, exploited, manipulated, or simply ridiculed - in many ways. But I feel so lucky that the people I have met (my friends, family, teammates, coworkers, strangers!) and the environments I have been in (the communities, groups, workspaces, etc) have not been those to dampen my flame.
Of course, I've been disappointed, disheartened, broken and jaded on various occasions - but not enough to crush me. Not enough to make me lose or hide my self-expression. Not enough to stop me from loving the world with all my heart.
No, the weight of the world has not crushed me enough to stop me from wanting to help build a world that cares.
And yes, I am so incredibly grateful for exactly that.
I’m grateful that I still love with my whole heart;
I still smile with all my genuinity;
I still hug with all my strength.
I’m grateful that I still believe with all my willpower;
still speak with all my warmth;
still explore and learn with all my curiosity and enthusiasm.
I am grateful that I have the privileges, opportunities, environments and spaces to still be able to put myself into the world fully.
Indeed, I am grateful that -
there is a lot of trust from my family, and respect for my own decisions
the people around me ultimately support my endeavours
I have someone I feel comfortable saying "I love you" to
people who I want to keep close to in my life have that mutual intention back
...That I've met people who stay for my wildness instead of leave because of it. :')
They say to surround yourself with people who encourage and empower you - but sometimes we inevitably meet those who bring us down. Sometimes we can’t choose for that to not happen to us. I’m definitely no different.
...So yes - maybe there will be a day, time or situation that will eventually break me....maybe.
But until then, you bet I'll be unapologetically (sorry-not-sorryly) me.
And as long as I still have my light, I am *not* letting anyone around me lose theirs.
Not a chance.
🐾 ~ Wildheart
Soo much thanks for you too, for reading!!! It may just seem like reading, but to me also your support, interest and open-mindedness -- and that means so much! You're quite literally, part of the 'environment' that I talk about!! Your presence makes up the environment that surrounds me and you give me the space to feel comfortable sharing my thoughts. :')
So - thank you. ♥